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Friday, October 26, 2012

how can i describe you


how can i describe you

how can i describe you
without seeming
unbearably sappy
and romantically redundant?

you are the first breath i took
when i rose screaming
from the womb

you are the marrow in my bones
where my life’s blood
is manufactured

you are the dawn
of a day that never ends

you are the fawn
frozen in the headlights
of my speeding life
the one i chose
to wreck my self
into the gutter
and across into the trees
to avoid hurting

you are the taste
of wine sap apples
on my tongue
the essence of cinnamon
and nutmeg

you are the appetizer
at my banquet
and the main course
and dessert
all served at once

you are the one
i was waiting for
before i even knew
i was waiting

you are the ferris wheel,
the merry-go-round,
the bumper cars---
the carnival of love

you are the gold crayon
in my crayola box
and the blue and yellow
and red and green
there is no picture
i might want to color
that i will not find myself
reaching for you

you are the one
of which there is no other
the prime cause
and end result
of all my days

you are what god gave me
as compensation
for my failure
to get to heaven

you are the pulse
in my wrist
and the pain
in my side

you take my breath away
and breathe life
into my lungs
all at the same instant
the cat who straddles me
and sucks my breath
and the paramedic
who gives the cpr
to bring me back from death

if i had never met you
then i would never have known
what love means
i would have stumbled
in the dark
blind to the meaning of light


if i had never met you
i would have never understood
the purpose of poetry
my talent would have been
so much sand
to be blown by an indifferent wind

you are my mother
and my child
my beginning and my end
and all the life between

i could have died
without knowing you
and my life would have ended
like the life of a fly
without so much as a whimper
but now i will scream in dying
trumpet like a bull elephant
at the outrage of mortality

how can i be
what i am
without being in love with you?
there is a simple equation
at work in my world now:
i love
therefore
i am

don’t think i am obsessed
i am as rational
as any man dared
hope to claim
as sane
as a psychiatrist on valium
and as calm
as a cow
who has been fed, bred and milked

yet
i love you still
and the crazy part of me
loves you
just as much
as my rational self

how can i describe you?
when i open the door
into the dark room of my heart
you are the light
that floods in
and illuminates my soul

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I am from West Virginia. Born in New Martinsville to a minister's family. Traveled around West Virginia and Southern Ohio growing up. The only stability I got was from my mother's side of the family in Boone County. My Great Grandfather on my father's side was preaching in Madison during the Mine Wars. He ran for the state legislature on a pro-union ticket and won only to have the coal companies tie the results up in court so he ended serving only one day out of this term. My Grandfather on my mother's side stood with the miner's at Blair Mountain and died of Black Lung when I was still in my teens. I was raised a Conservative Christian...not a Fundamentalist. Strict separation of church and state based on the understanding that what makes for a good politician is pretty much the opposite of what makes a good Christian. I'm politically radical in that I believe in one man/one vote and the only way to have political equality is to have economic equality. I'm an atheist because once I accepted the fact of my own mortality I found no need for belief in God.