the coin that you pay with is one you once tossed

prisoned inside my private world

i watch dust devils dash and swirl

and lift the skirt of a nubile girl

i hear the wind raping the trees

i see the bruised and battered leaves

come crumbling down around her knees

i kid myself that i’m not mad

i’m not bitter, i’m not sad

that i don’t shed tears for love unknown

and my foolish fears haven’t left me lone

that i still walk the path between the stars

and i still can catch fireflies in jars

but i no longer seek the reason why

i giggle when i hear grown men cry

i’ve never lived, so i’ll never die

and dying is such a tired cliche

done to death and every day

is done again like dogs at play

i once knew rules and a thing called sin

i pattered prayers and mouthed amen

my faith was furious, but a trifle thin

i grew tired of seeking a savior to blame

i forgave myself, learned to live with my shame

found water or wine gurgles down the same drain

there is nothing left for any of us

a long ride to the grave in a short black bus

and all of our fuming and all of our fuss

cannot cajole the driver to changing his route

or opening the back and letting us out

so it’s best not to whimper, best not to pout

i look out the window over my kitchen sink

hidden in shadow, with coffee to drink

watching a young girl and trying to think

why a flash of white panties once felt like a fire

what it meant to be eaten, consumed by desire

but my dragon is flagging, too quickly i tire

i watch her walk by and she doesn’t see me

just as well since my lusting’s now limp apathy

and the pride of my loins can do nothing but pee

surely that is life’s lesson that i somehow had lost

you pay for your pleasures without knowing the cost

and the coin that you pay with is one you once tossed

On August 2nd, I will turn sixty.

And sometime in the course of this year I will pass the 30-year mark in my private war. I really don’t know what to call it. Can one man be considered an army outside of military recruitment ads and video games?


Guerilla action would be more correct. I'm just looking for a few good men...and women...and gays...and lesbians...and undecideds and monosexuals...hell, we’ll even take heterosexuals but they’ll have to sit in the back of the van on field trips...to join up.


By the way, I am a pacifist. A choice not all atheists make, but one I see as an essential corollary to admitting life ends with the death of the brain. An executed man no longer exists. That puts him beyond the possibility of punishment or learning, from any continuation of his sordid life or a change that wells up inside the worst of us at times. We understand this, of course. Or don’t you know the adage: There’s no use beating a dead horse.


A pacifist is a person who fights with his mind not his fists.


But then, that's where all wars are fought: in the minds of men. Killing a man is the ultimate admission that you have no logical and rational answer to the arguments he is presenting. That applies to both sides of the Apocalypse as well...or rather, all three sides.


Judaism complacently going about taking back all the land their God gave them when they first went into Palestine, at least, according to their legends. The same God, by the way, who commanded genocidal warfare to rid the land of those impertinent enough to be living there at the time.


Islam doing the same thing only with them it isn't so much the land as the world they're after.


And in the third corner, we've got Christian Zionism...the first national religion the United States has had since we got rid of the Church of England...and the most evil.


Evil?


Let me give it to you in a nutshell...what it took me years to learn then even longer to recover from...if I have at all.
Some people call it Christian Nationalism but I feel they are narrowing their focus to what is happening. I refer to it as Christian Zionism because their aim is to rule the world as kings and queens and royalty in a revivied Kingdom of David ruled out of Jerusalem by Christ himself


Christian Zionism teaches that War is Good and Peace is Evil.


Christian Zionism teaches that the man who brings peace to the Middle East will be the Antichrist and the true Christ will be revealed when, just as the world is about to destroy itself in a paroxysm of religious mania the like of which has never occurred in the history of mankind, he returns to take his vengeance on his enemies.


Christian Zionism teaches that the deaths of million...billions...is coming and that incredible slaughter is the work of their God. And they are happy about it.


Christian Zionism teaches that these deaths occur with the sole purpose of forcing the Jews to convert to Christianity or be killed in a Holocaust sent down from heaven by God.


Christian Zionism believes that their believers will be taken bodily into heaven for seven years while this slaughter on earth is occurring.


Christian Zionism teaches that, after the deaths of billions, they will return to earth and rule the world for a thousand years from a One World Kingdom established in the city of Jerusalem.


Christian Zionism is a Premillenarian Sect. No problem there, we've had them around in every generation since this whole mess got started. Even the followers of Jesus...and Jesus himself...believed the world was about to end way back then. Gee, you think God Incarnate would have known when the ending of the world was coming, wouldn't you?


The one thing that is absolutely true about Premillenarian Sects:


They are always, always wrong.


We are living in a dying empire. This last worldwide financial crisis we brought about through our greed is jumpstarting what was before a gradual shift of the world economy to the Pacific Rim countries and Indian. Our military efforts have only shown the futility of imposing change on a people at the point of a gun...and the lack of honor a supposedly free state would be to attempt such a vile thing.


In a few more years, whites will be a minority in this country. Do you really think they're going to turn the country over without a fight?


Christian Zionism is evil.


It's too late to change. Probably was thirty years ago when I first started warning people of this day. And you know the funny thing, the really side-splittingly hilarious part? Even though it's happening before our eyes nobody is talking about it. Not a peep out of the media.


Nobody’s talking about if except for a few of us Atheist Guerillas.